Thursday, June 22, 2006
Message from Last Year, November 22...
I've always wanted to post this publicly since I did not know if it was a literal warning for Chicago on November 22 or not. I did have a dream interpreter give some feedback on this dream. He was from Steams Ministries (www.streamsministries.com) and gave the interpretation that, the 11 from November meant End Time Ministry (11th hour) , the 22 was double the eleven which was certainty, and that I did have a prophetic evangelist gifting. Meaning that I was to be involved in End Time prophetic ministry. This was a different interpretation and did not explain the Chicago aspect. But could very well be accurate. Here is the posting and the dream from last year. (dream took place in after November 22, 2004).
Written November 9, 2005:
Dear brothers, sisters, and friends,
One of the first inclinations that I had once I became a Christian was that the Lord had given me the gift of prophecy. Early on in my new walk with Christ I had determined (at this time I do not remember how) that a baby that was in a mother’s womb would not come to term but be taken to heaven on March 24th, 1989. This was a baby that I believed I was the father of, for I had gotten my fiancée pregnant before I had committed my life to Christ in baptism (December 18, 1988). I had told her of this date and did not believe her when she said she was going to have an abortion. I did nothing to stop the abortion and picked her up at the hospital after it was all over to drive her home. This was in February 1989. Once I got home and realized the magnitude of what had taken place, I got down on my knees a wept before the Lord for forgiveness for not stopping the abortion or intervening in any way, also for the loss of the child. From that point forward I swore off any prophetic utterances and assumed from Deuteronomy 18:22: “When a prophet speaks in the name of the LORD, if the word does not come to pass or come true, that is a word that the LORD has not spoken; the prophet has spoken it presumptuously. You need not be afraid of him.” and also the words of Zechariah chapter 13. Concluding that I was nothing more that a false prophet and I put away anything to do prophecy. It was not until this past Spring of 2005 that I was talking with the same woman who had the abortion that the topic of dreams and prophecy came up and she mentioned to me about the freak snowstorm that had hit us in March of 1989, I was driving with her when the wet roads from the falling snow melting on the pavement, suddenly had covered the road and I lost control of the vehicle I was driving and running into a tree. She was thrown against the dashboard and broke the windshield with her head. She was taken to the hospital by ambulance but was OK. She mentioned how her stomach was thrown against the dashboard during impact. Then she reminded me that the day was March 24th. I had never put the 2 together in 16 years. And even now I ask myself questions as to why God allowed the abortion. I still struggle with how does freewill fit in with what the Lord has said. Didn’t Jonah prophecy that 40 more days and Nineveh would be overturned. (Jonah 3:4), though it wasn’t after 40 days since the people repented. Was Jonah a false prophet since what he said didn’t come to pass? Would the baby have been taken during the accident had she not choose to abort the child the previous month? Had I stood up and fought for the child’s life and believed what she was telling me about getting an abortion made a difference? I can even say when I went home and wept I never truly understood the magnitude of why I was so broken until many years later… But that’s another story for another day…
I had a dream at the end of November last year (2004). It was a dream I had before when I was living in San Antonio but I could not make it out at the time. In that dream there were 2 people who were interfering in my understanding and seeing the dream. The second time I had the dream I was able to understand it better for the 2 people in the dream giving the distraction were gone.
I was walking through a large city, all the cars were covered with what seemed to be a yellowish type ash, as of snow but it wasn’t that cold. Everything was covered with it. There were solders everywhere in BDU’s (Battle dress uniforms, fatigues). They did not notice me as a I walked around looking for a way of escape from the city. People were running to and fro everywhere. I pondered what all this meant and then I heard “November 22, Chicago”) and I woke up. There was no year given just a date, since it was past November 22 I was not too concerned and figured at least we had another year. I have shared the dream with others throughout the year but now since the time is so close it’s been on my heart to pass this on. Perhaps if there is an attack planned on that date then those who can do something about it may get there hands on this and stop it. Perhaps I am just a false prophet and this is a distracter to keep you from serving the Lord in some way. If that is the case I pray that I be silenced and not used as a tool of Satan to deceive God’s people. But if the Lord is using me in a prophetic way that may the visions and dreams increase so I can be used to prepare His people for what is yet to come. I do believe that September 11th was not the end of anything but just the beginning, a wake up call to awaken the Lord’s people, to serve him wholeheartedly and not to trust in man or any nation, for their security. I do believe there is more terror to come.
I also want to include another dream I had on September 29, 2005 after a period of fasting:
I was on what seemed to be a beautiful island, I was with my older brother Ken. We were hiking together through the forests on the island but not far from the beach. I needed to go to the beach for some reason and left my brother in the woods. I was singing a song that had never been written in my head and thought it to be a good song. When I reached the ocean I noticed out over the water in the distance what seemed to be an island (or a mountain) of some sort was rising up out of the sea, I could see it get larger and taller. As a watched it getting closer and higher I looked to see what was a claw from the hand of an enormous beast splash down in the water as it came closer to land. (Revelation 13 talks of a beast rising out of the sea) I turned to run and tell my brother but immediately a hand came up from the sand and grabbed my heel. I then woke up.
After writing down the dream in my diary (I try to record all the dreams that seem to have significance). I was pondering in my heart about the size of the beast, like a mountain of island rising from the sea. I’ve read Revelation 13 but never figured such a size. As I pondered in my heart what could defeat such a monster, I looked out my window. I was still dark for the dawn had not yet arrived. And the instant I looked out I saw the morning star shining brightly in the sky. (Revelation 3:28) And my heart was at rest…
Lastly I want to end with a word of confession. As many of you may wonder what has happened to me over the last 9 months or so. I used to write often and share what the Lord was leading me though in my life and give Scripture and hopefully encouragement to deepen your relationship with the Lord and urge you to find your path that He plans for each of us that follow him. To my shame (though being warned in dreams and past experience), I myself took a turn off the path that the Lord was leading me on and got tangled in the web of sexual immorality. I believed that chapter of my life of struggle and temptation was not only forgiven, but buried and healed and wouldn’t be a problem in the future. To make a long story short I ended up with a woman, not my wife (as you know I am single), in a hotel room late in August of this past year. I was never caught or publicly exposed but my secret sin, backsliding, and temptations constantly were telling me to come clean and get some help. Not to mention the theme of some of the small group lessons I was in was sexual immorality in the church at Thyatira (Revelation 2:18-29) In September I had had enough and finally got back into a men’s sexual purity group (www.puredesire.org). I also made full account of the events that led up my downfall and confessed them in their entirety to 2 men whom I knew I could trust as well as a general confession to other Christians that are a part of my life in Massachusetts. I feel I also need to confess this all to you since I am to have no secrets that the enemy can use to attack us with and keep us silent out of fear of being exposed. (Indeed that is why I had not written in so long was due to my secret sin, not to mention the Lord was not working in my life as he had before I wandered.) How can you be accused of something you have already confessed to? So often we assume that everyone is doing fine and that we are the only one who struggles, nothing could be further from the truth and we need to be able to confess our sins to one another before they take hold, weaken, and destroy us, making us un-useful in the service of the Kingdom of God.
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.
(Jam 5:16)
And also stay in fellowship with one another for part of Satan’s plan is to isolate the sheep in order to devour them.
But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.
(1Jo 1:7-10)
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
(1Pe 5:8-10)
Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.
(Pro 28:13)
So I urge you to stay in fellowship, be transparent and don’t conceal your transgressions they will only get worse. Bring them into the light and trust in God’s mercy not only to forgive but also to heal the brokenness of our very hearts!
May the Lord bless you by this letter and encourage you to stand firm and Trust Him in the time to come!
Your brother in the Lord Jesus Christ,
Michael Kaminski (11/9/2005)
Written November 9, 2005:
Dear brothers, sisters, and friends,
One of the first inclinations that I had once I became a Christian was that the Lord had given me the gift of prophecy. Early on in my new walk with Christ I had determined (at this time I do not remember how) that a baby that was in a mother’s womb would not come to term but be taken to heaven on March 24th, 1989. This was a baby that I believed I was the father of, for I had gotten my fiancée pregnant before I had committed my life to Christ in baptism (December 18, 1988). I had told her of this date and did not believe her when she said she was going to have an abortion. I did nothing to stop the abortion and picked her up at the hospital after it was all over to drive her home. This was in February 1989. Once I got home and realized the magnitude of what had taken place, I got down on my knees a wept before the Lord for forgiveness for not stopping the abortion or intervening in any way, also for the loss of the child. From that point forward I swore off any prophetic utterances and assumed from Deuteronomy 18:22: “When a prophet speaks in the name of the LORD, if the word does not come to pass or come true, that is a word that the LORD has not spoken; the prophet has spoken it presumptuously. You need not be afraid of him.” and also the words of Zechariah chapter 13. Concluding that I was nothing more that a false prophet and I put away anything to do prophecy. It was not until this past Spring of 2005 that I was talking with the same woman who had the abortion that the topic of dreams and prophecy came up and she mentioned to me about the freak snowstorm that had hit us in March of 1989, I was driving with her when the wet roads from the falling snow melting on the pavement, suddenly had covered the road and I lost control of the vehicle I was driving and running into a tree. She was thrown against the dashboard and broke the windshield with her head. She was taken to the hospital by ambulance but was OK. She mentioned how her stomach was thrown against the dashboard during impact. Then she reminded me that the day was March 24th. I had never put the 2 together in 16 years. And even now I ask myself questions as to why God allowed the abortion. I still struggle with how does freewill fit in with what the Lord has said. Didn’t Jonah prophecy that 40 more days and Nineveh would be overturned. (Jonah 3:4), though it wasn’t after 40 days since the people repented. Was Jonah a false prophet since what he said didn’t come to pass? Would the baby have been taken during the accident had she not choose to abort the child the previous month? Had I stood up and fought for the child’s life and believed what she was telling me about getting an abortion made a difference? I can even say when I went home and wept I never truly understood the magnitude of why I was so broken until many years later… But that’s another story for another day…
I had a dream at the end of November last year (2004). It was a dream I had before when I was living in San Antonio but I could not make it out at the time. In that dream there were 2 people who were interfering in my understanding and seeing the dream. The second time I had the dream I was able to understand it better for the 2 people in the dream giving the distraction were gone.
I was walking through a large city, all the cars were covered with what seemed to be a yellowish type ash, as of snow but it wasn’t that cold. Everything was covered with it. There were solders everywhere in BDU’s (Battle dress uniforms, fatigues). They did not notice me as a I walked around looking for a way of escape from the city. People were running to and fro everywhere. I pondered what all this meant and then I heard “November 22, Chicago”) and I woke up. There was no year given just a date, since it was past November 22 I was not too concerned and figured at least we had another year. I have shared the dream with others throughout the year but now since the time is so close it’s been on my heart to pass this on. Perhaps if there is an attack planned on that date then those who can do something about it may get there hands on this and stop it. Perhaps I am just a false prophet and this is a distracter to keep you from serving the Lord in some way. If that is the case I pray that I be silenced and not used as a tool of Satan to deceive God’s people. But if the Lord is using me in a prophetic way that may the visions and dreams increase so I can be used to prepare His people for what is yet to come. I do believe that September 11th was not the end of anything but just the beginning, a wake up call to awaken the Lord’s people, to serve him wholeheartedly and not to trust in man or any nation, for their security. I do believe there is more terror to come.
I also want to include another dream I had on September 29, 2005 after a period of fasting:
I was on what seemed to be a beautiful island, I was with my older brother Ken. We were hiking together through the forests on the island but not far from the beach. I needed to go to the beach for some reason and left my brother in the woods. I was singing a song that had never been written in my head and thought it to be a good song. When I reached the ocean I noticed out over the water in the distance what seemed to be an island (or a mountain) of some sort was rising up out of the sea, I could see it get larger and taller. As a watched it getting closer and higher I looked to see what was a claw from the hand of an enormous beast splash down in the water as it came closer to land. (Revelation 13 talks of a beast rising out of the sea) I turned to run and tell my brother but immediately a hand came up from the sand and grabbed my heel. I then woke up.
After writing down the dream in my diary (I try to record all the dreams that seem to have significance). I was pondering in my heart about the size of the beast, like a mountain of island rising from the sea. I’ve read Revelation 13 but never figured such a size. As I pondered in my heart what could defeat such a monster, I looked out my window. I was still dark for the dawn had not yet arrived. And the instant I looked out I saw the morning star shining brightly in the sky. (Revelation 3:28) And my heart was at rest…
Lastly I want to end with a word of confession. As many of you may wonder what has happened to me over the last 9 months or so. I used to write often and share what the Lord was leading me though in my life and give Scripture and hopefully encouragement to deepen your relationship with the Lord and urge you to find your path that He plans for each of us that follow him. To my shame (though being warned in dreams and past experience), I myself took a turn off the path that the Lord was leading me on and got tangled in the web of sexual immorality. I believed that chapter of my life of struggle and temptation was not only forgiven, but buried and healed and wouldn’t be a problem in the future. To make a long story short I ended up with a woman, not my wife (as you know I am single), in a hotel room late in August of this past year. I was never caught or publicly exposed but my secret sin, backsliding, and temptations constantly were telling me to come clean and get some help. Not to mention the theme of some of the small group lessons I was in was sexual immorality in the church at Thyatira (Revelation 2:18-29) In September I had had enough and finally got back into a men’s sexual purity group (www.puredesire.org). I also made full account of the events that led up my downfall and confessed them in their entirety to 2 men whom I knew I could trust as well as a general confession to other Christians that are a part of my life in Massachusetts. I feel I also need to confess this all to you since I am to have no secrets that the enemy can use to attack us with and keep us silent out of fear of being exposed. (Indeed that is why I had not written in so long was due to my secret sin, not to mention the Lord was not working in my life as he had before I wandered.) How can you be accused of something you have already confessed to? So often we assume that everyone is doing fine and that we are the only one who struggles, nothing could be further from the truth and we need to be able to confess our sins to one another before they take hold, weaken, and destroy us, making us un-useful in the service of the Kingdom of God.
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.
(Jam 5:16)
And also stay in fellowship with one another for part of Satan’s plan is to isolate the sheep in order to devour them.
But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.
(1Jo 1:7-10)
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
(1Pe 5:8-10)
Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.
(Pro 28:13)
So I urge you to stay in fellowship, be transparent and don’t conceal your transgressions they will only get worse. Bring them into the light and trust in God’s mercy not only to forgive but also to heal the brokenness of our very hearts!
May the Lord bless you by this letter and encourage you to stand firm and Trust Him in the time to come!
Your brother in the Lord Jesus Christ,
Michael Kaminski (11/9/2005)
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Cloak of Christianity
Back in January of this year (2006), I finally got to meet a man whom had intrigued me for quite a while now. He was known to have a prophetic gift and I had heard much about his gifting. For instance he was visiting a local congregation when he noticed a man that had the word “pedophile” written over him. After a double-take or two, he knew he was to instruct the pastor of this. Originally he did not want to. He ran into the man a short time later handing out tracts to children at a local beach. He caught his eye again and this time knew, no matter how strange it would seem, he needed to call the pastor and tell him. When he did, the pastor was already familiar with the case and had given the man one last chance. One more call and he was going to be removed from fellowship and this was the call. Shortly there after the man was arrested for trying to kidnap a young boy. There are many other stories like this but I’ll use that as an example to show why I was eager to meet him. Once it was decided when and where we would meet, he took the day off work to seek the Lord to hear revelation and wisdom about my situation. I had been struggling to hear and know the Lord, there were blockages and constant spiritual attacks that we seeming to keep me from my goal, intimacy with God. As well as some of my own dreams that seemed to possibly have prophetic insights as well.
By the time I did meet with him, he already had a page of information about me that the Lord had revealed to him. There was much to this but I will only focus today on one part of three of the spirits that were moving against me. He pointed out demonic spirits of lust, religion, and witchcraft. I can and may write a story on each of these but I wanted to start with the spirit of religion.
Since I became a Christian in 1988, I always had a desire to know God’s word. And the words would stick. I never tried to remember Scripture and I really can’t quote it word for word, but I usually can find the Scripture that is in my mind and Spirit fairly quickly. I took this as a gift of the Spirit, it is not something I need to work at, it comes naturally. Scripture flows through my mind regularly and comes to mind often when talking to or teaching others. So a spirit of Religion was not something I readily understood. I had taught many Bible studies and even had the opportunity to preach a few times.
At this time I was spending a lot of time with a woman who I had met through my job at the post office. In fact it was no secret that I had really fallen for this woman and desired to pursue a relationship with her. (Even she knew this.) The problem was that she had another man in her life that was interested in her and she was also attracted to Him. We spent almost a part of every day together for a time and talked a lot about dreams and revelations, prayed together and I often shared books and the Scripture with her. But the other man was always in the background and they would go out some evenings. To say the least this tore my heart apart but I know that we are all given freewill, but I did try to get her to choose me over him. I would even resort to using the Scripture to try to get her to choose me over the other man, making her feel guilty and getting into an argument, only afterward to feel guilty for trying to control and manipulate her with God and His word to accomplish my desire. Now I did not see fully what I was doing only that in my mind I was pointing out the truth and she was not willing to accept it. Therefore I did not need to love her since she was rebelling against God.
As time came to pass, we had another one of our disagreements ending in the statement “Your right, I’m wrong, now leave me alone.” What a victory, or rather a defeat, but I really didn’t see what was going on. Later that day I was reading a book called “Pure Desire” (This has a piece to do with the lust aspect I’ll write about later.) In that book the author told a story about how he was afraid of failing at Seminary so he wore his flight jacket with all it’s decorations to tell everyone, “Hey I am somebody” The Lord confronted him one day about this, asking him why he was wearing the jacket. His original excuse was the cold though the temperature was warm enough not to need a jacket. He knew it wasn’t honest and confessed. “Lord, I’m afraid of failing at Seminary. I wear it so I’ll feel like somebody” Christ responded, “I died for you; that what makes you somebody. Get rid of the flight jacket and trust Me.” (Page 172, “Pure Desire”)
After reading about his story of living in denial about his fears of failure with his flight jacket, I decided to ask the Lord if I was wearing a “flight jacket”? The Lord’s response was that I was wearing a “Cloak of Christianity”. I quickly remembered the spirit of Religion that was coming against me. I also remembered how I have kept others at a distance from me by finding what is wrong with them through the scripture and then using that as an excuse not to love them. That is exactly what I was doing with the woman whom I had been spending all this time with. I was driving another person away with my “cloak of Christianity” that told me I didn’t have to love someone if they were disobeying God’s word. That protected my heart from pain and gave me an excuse to distance myself from others. Imagine if that was how the Lord was with each of us? With me! After falling to my knees in repentance I knew I needed to confess my sin to whom I had offended and called the woman I was seeing and told her what the Lord had revealed to me about my using God’s word to protect my heart from pain a defend against heartbreak trying to control others to my way through the Scripture. Actually it is what the Pharisee’s did, used God’s word and Name to accomplish their own purpose. Complete selfishness. Opposite of God’s Will. The spirit of Religion.
By the time I did meet with him, he already had a page of information about me that the Lord had revealed to him. There was much to this but I will only focus today on one part of three of the spirits that were moving against me. He pointed out demonic spirits of lust, religion, and witchcraft. I can and may write a story on each of these but I wanted to start with the spirit of religion.
Since I became a Christian in 1988, I always had a desire to know God’s word. And the words would stick. I never tried to remember Scripture and I really can’t quote it word for word, but I usually can find the Scripture that is in my mind and Spirit fairly quickly. I took this as a gift of the Spirit, it is not something I need to work at, it comes naturally. Scripture flows through my mind regularly and comes to mind often when talking to or teaching others. So a spirit of Religion was not something I readily understood. I had taught many Bible studies and even had the opportunity to preach a few times.
At this time I was spending a lot of time with a woman who I had met through my job at the post office. In fact it was no secret that I had really fallen for this woman and desired to pursue a relationship with her. (Even she knew this.) The problem was that she had another man in her life that was interested in her and she was also attracted to Him. We spent almost a part of every day together for a time and talked a lot about dreams and revelations, prayed together and I often shared books and the Scripture with her. But the other man was always in the background and they would go out some evenings. To say the least this tore my heart apart but I know that we are all given freewill, but I did try to get her to choose me over him. I would even resort to using the Scripture to try to get her to choose me over the other man, making her feel guilty and getting into an argument, only afterward to feel guilty for trying to control and manipulate her with God and His word to accomplish my desire. Now I did not see fully what I was doing only that in my mind I was pointing out the truth and she was not willing to accept it. Therefore I did not need to love her since she was rebelling against God.
As time came to pass, we had another one of our disagreements ending in the statement “Your right, I’m wrong, now leave me alone.” What a victory, or rather a defeat, but I really didn’t see what was going on. Later that day I was reading a book called “Pure Desire” (This has a piece to do with the lust aspect I’ll write about later.) In that book the author told a story about how he was afraid of failing at Seminary so he wore his flight jacket with all it’s decorations to tell everyone, “Hey I am somebody” The Lord confronted him one day about this, asking him why he was wearing the jacket. His original excuse was the cold though the temperature was warm enough not to need a jacket. He knew it wasn’t honest and confessed. “Lord, I’m afraid of failing at Seminary. I wear it so I’ll feel like somebody” Christ responded, “I died for you; that what makes you somebody. Get rid of the flight jacket and trust Me.” (Page 172, “Pure Desire”)
After reading about his story of living in denial about his fears of failure with his flight jacket, I decided to ask the Lord if I was wearing a “flight jacket”? The Lord’s response was that I was wearing a “Cloak of Christianity”. I quickly remembered the spirit of Religion that was coming against me. I also remembered how I have kept others at a distance from me by finding what is wrong with them through the scripture and then using that as an excuse not to love them. That is exactly what I was doing with the woman whom I had been spending all this time with. I was driving another person away with my “cloak of Christianity” that told me I didn’t have to love someone if they were disobeying God’s word. That protected my heart from pain and gave me an excuse to distance myself from others. Imagine if that was how the Lord was with each of us? With me! After falling to my knees in repentance I knew I needed to confess my sin to whom I had offended and called the woman I was seeing and told her what the Lord had revealed to me about my using God’s word to protect my heart from pain a defend against heartbreak trying to control others to my way through the Scripture. Actually it is what the Pharisee’s did, used God’s word and Name to accomplish their own purpose. Complete selfishness. Opposite of God’s Will. The spirit of Religion.
